Today, I’d like to share with you a piece our oldest son wrote the other day… his honesty through prose simply amazes me and humbles me…
Pretend your heart is like white converse. You wanna keep it clean so you pray and worship while you’re at church, but once you go to school, you may cuss someone out cuz they “hurch” you. And it’s like dirt, cuz it ruins your reputation. You see reputation comes along with your outspoken salvation. Cuz, once you’ve made an example to one person, it’ll spread. And though you may apologize, you’ll keep living in dread, cuz of the one thing you maybe said keeps coming back to guilt you. So, you think that if you keep doing it, you’ll be okay, but to your dismay, you just dig yourself a deeper hole. So, when you lie about it to your parents, your mindset will take its toll and mess you up much more than you could ever imagine. Your demons turn into dragons, and you have these night visions of flames of hell engulfing you while you’re waiting for God to start talking to you, but you’re too far gone, because you haven’t confessed of what you’ve done. So you try and run. Run from the ones you hurt and skurt to a last resort to be like Kurt. You start to flirt with death. But all around you, it’s like Macbeth, cuz your world is falling apart at the seams when you replay the memories like scenes in a movie until you can’t take it anymore, and you fall apart. This is a lot of what I’ve been going through. I’ve been lost, not knowing what to do, until I talked to someone, and he told me the truth, and I’ve been trying to get closer. Closer to who I need to be. Now, if you can see where I’m going, I ask for you to accept my apology. I know it’ll take time, and I need a clean slate and accountability, but if I confess and repent, the Lord will help. So, I ask if you could forgive me for what I ruined with y’all, and after I’ve knelt before God, I hope I can make things right. That’s all I have to say tonight. Thank you.
Penned – JG – 3/28/17
I see your eyes that twinkle when I arrive, but your soul looks weary of the pain.
I hear your talk of life and new beginnings, yet beneath the surface bubbles the regret and tears you trade for shame.
I listen to your words on the air sounding light and cheerful, but your voice sounds so tired.
His love is so much bigger than those accusations of the liar.
I watch as you move along the road, changing your hair, your tone and your style.
I pick up on the nuances in the atmosphere, you are attempting to stay a longer while.
I refuse to demand you live in that past love of muck and mire.
His love is so much bigger than those accusations to the liar.
Can I ever convince you of His faithfulness and healing?
Can I ever persuade you to believe it was my heart He was sealing?
I pray one day you will find the truth that lies within me.
Regardless of all the broken hearts, I will love you for all eternity.
Penned – MG – 1/30/17
I watch you from a far
You scrap and scrape for the par
They are all like crabs within the barrel
Pulling you back, never caring your life is imperil
You wander from place to place
Always wondering how to save face
This life you’ve contrived is only a game
Always shielding your heart but finding the same
Lost and confused, bended and broken
Those you gathered only gave you a token
You thought you were reaching your highest goal
Only to find all the searching has only found an empty soul
I long to help you, to lend you a hand
Yet, you push me away, stating it is alone you must stand
My heart cries to see your stubborn desolation to stay
Praying one day you might realize He is the Only Way
Penned – MG – 1/24/17
I walk down this broken road of memories
The dreams that once were, crashed along the side
The joys filled the hours and the laughter rang out for days
I could glory in those moments that once were
Yet I would be mistaken, for those were days filled with smiles and with pain
As time moves on, we seem to embrace the sunshine and push away the clouds
We forget the misery of which we survived
We put away the those heartaches, praying they will never come again
If I only grasp the good and never the bad, I cheat myself and I cheat you
For in the sorrow, wisdom can be found
In the brokenness and the tragedy, grace is remembered
Throughout my agony and distress, that is where His strength and love is deepest know
Penned – MG – 1/2/17
Don’t you realize?
It’s a long, long journey with lots of twists and turns.
It’s a wide, wide path with lots of scrapes and burns.
Where do you go when your way is busted and broken?
Where do you run when you find your future isn’t quite the token?
Don’t you realize?
It can be a journey of much peace, joy and love.
It can be a path of many blessings from above.
All you have to do is turn around and walk into His open arms.
All you have to do is believe He will never bring you any harm.
Don’t you realize?
He loves you.
He gave His life to prove it.
Penned – MG – 10/6/16
Daily Prompt: Realize
“Standing up for what is right is a key to freedom…A chain of bondage is placed upon a person link by link each time she turns away from the Truth or refuses to voice what is right.” – Jesus Freaks
You speak lies as if they were rays of light.
You spew anger and deceit like rain.
Untruths pour out of your lips like rivers flowing to find higher ground.
Yet, you never see the chains that have wrapped around you link by link.
You stand proclaiming your stories.
Believing this will bring you fame and glory.
You hold onto your belief that slander will bring you the power you seek.
Yet, you never realize the pit in which you have thrown yourself is destined only for disaster.
You cannot see the chains that bind you.
You cannot see the miry pit in which you tread.
Your release lies within the Truth.
Your liberty is bound within your fight for rightness.
Your freedom is enslaved to the veracity of your words.
There is Hope for this prison in which you dwell.
There is a Promise for these chains that hold you still.
Just turn toward Him to see your redemption.
Let His Truth wash over you and make you clean.
Penned – 7/27/16 – MG
“Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed.” John 8:36
I sit and ponder
Wondering what words to use
I read. I peruse. I pause.
I stand and wait
I listen intently for what You have
I look. I walk. I breathe.
Sometimes, I wonder if I hear clearly.
Sometimes, I question if you care.
Sometimes, I doubt I am able.
I know You have best in mind.
Yet, I struggle with the waiting.
I know Your love is the best.
Yet, I wrestle with the longing.
Nothing can compare
Nothing can comprehend
Nothing can hinder
Nothing can resist
You are my everything
Even when I feel undone
I know You are below
Even when I cannot hear
I know You are lacking
Even when I cannot see
I know You are beyond
Penned – MG – 7/7/16
Childhood is so much smile-hood
Remembering you as a kid is remembering all you did
Childhood is doing all you could
It’s a time of freedom, excitement and sunshine
Yet for some…
Childhood is so much orphanhood
Remembering you as a child is remembering all that was vile
Childhood is forgetting all you would
It’s a time of bondage, heartbreak and torrent rain
Let the winds of change come
Let the waves wash over the sum
Let them wipe away what they will
Let them bring in the peace and still
Penned – MG – 6/7/16
Daily Prompt: Childhood
I see you there
In the shadows
You think I can’t see
You believe I can’t hear
You are convinced I don’t care
Can I tell you, you were not abandoned?
I hear you there
In that broken corner
You wrap your arms around
You close your eyes from the light
You shield your heart from His adoration
Can I tell you, again, you have never been alone?
He loves you more than you can see
He cares even more than you can fathom
He’s been there longer than you can imagine
He created you before your mother knew
He loved you before the beginning of time
He never left from your side. He never abandoned you.
You will find Him in a song
You will find Him in a Book
You will find Him in a dream
You will find Him in a memory
Just open your eyes and open your heart
You will find Him if you will only believe
Penned – MG – 5/3/16
Daily Post Prompt: Abandoned
Fish bowl living is not an easy life.
Be careful what you say in your moment of strife.
It can be an invasion of rights, no privacy, no grace.
You can prove to the world your mouth is full of mace.
The house of glass is so delicate, so fragile.
People feel no remorse to throw a stone so casual.
Knock too hard, and the panes may just shatter.
They don’t think twice to have their circle full of chatter.
The fish bowl can get crowded as others try to see.
No matter how hard they imagine, their lives will never be.
When you’re on the outside looking in, you think you know it all.
When you’re on the inside searching out, you realize how easy is the fall.
Penned – MG – 3/30/16